Hello folks! It's been awhile, in fact exactly 2 months. I figured that if I didn't do something soon, it would be even harder to get back into writing. To be honest, my brain has been so full of other personal things that I haven't had any room from anything creative, besides maybe a little bit of knitting. There is always room for knitting. Some of you may have read that I have an ebook of my poems available for those of you who would like to drive into the recesses of my brain and find out a little more about me. If not, that's cool, poetry isn't everyone's cup of tea. Some of you might even know that I have an Instagram account, if you were following my book reviews last month. It so much fun, that I thought, what the heck, let's keep doing it. For some time, I have been wanting to write book reviews, in my own little way - my conversational way of writing. Nothing formal, just how I felt about a specific book, it's characters, settings, and maybe even a little information about the author, if I felt ambitious. This has been forming in my head off and on for about 3 years now, hey, I am a slow going kind of person. I take my time with things. What you don't know is that I am developing another blog site where I would do my book reviews. Unlike this platform, where I haven't seen anything that could give my pause or red flags, the other platform (which shall be nameless) has. I am waiting to be able to pay for the domain so that I have more control over what is done to my site. Sure, I want the domain for this place too! I have been having fun talking to you all through my little blogs.
So, why the fireworks and the catchy, click bate title. Well, today I want to talk to you about the fear around trying to make your dreams really. I have touched on similar topics in the past. However, today, I want to talk about how it feels to see your dreams slowly coming true. I think most of us would say, when we were young, we haboured this notion that our dreams and opportunities would fall into our laps. Let the fates, stars, universe handle it, it will come if I just believe hard enough. Wish long enough and send the positive thoughts out there. Once we got older and the reality of adulthood sets in, the sinking feel that this wasn't or isn't all it takes to make things a reality. If this wasn't you, if you always knew that it took a triad of hard work, universe communicating, and taking the opportunities that came your way (no matter how small); you were light-years away from where I was in my 20's. Now that I am a mire month and two days away from my 36th birthday, I have realized that I have to get off my butt and start doing more. I have since realized that the triad is the best way to try and make things happen, however what I didn't realize was belief is a strong part of that. It is the header to the little graph of life. Hard work doesn't happen unless you believe in what you are working on; universe communicating (or whatever similar from of communicating) definitely needs belief; and opportunities don't come unless you believe in putting yourself out there.
I decided that the latter was what I was missing. I have always worked hard, talk to my higher power and inner voice, however, putting myself out there is harder. I decided to make this happen by attempting to return to the work force. YUP the worst time to be endeavoring to do this. However, it is now or never; can't wait until the world to fix itself. I am searching, with the help of an employment counselor (something that I really didn't have the last time I was working) and I hope with this support that I can get further than I did the last time I was working. Between this blog, trying to figure out my book reviews and maybe even attempting, dare I say, to publish my poems for really and not a PDF, life is going to be interesting. These are just some of my dreams that I am trying to make a reality. Now, if I could only get over my hang ups about around my academic book, I think that I could really take a chunk out of the old ball over anxiety. Until we meet again, I close with this little cheeky image I found!
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